In case you forget, I may acted the same in front of you and everybody else, but please do notice, I showed something else I won't show to any other man.
In case you forget, even though my expression remains flat when you smiled at me, talked to me, flirted with me, deep down in my heart I've got fireworks inside of me
In case you forget, why I acted this way you asked. Oh, it's nothing more than a product of bitter memories.
I don't know whether you will read this or not, but all I can do now is hope, hoped that you will catch up with my faint signal, hoped that you can pick-up the puzzle pieces and solved it in time. Because I have realised that this lack of emotional showcasing ability is a lapse, that I'm afraid, I will never cope.
But then, life's too short for you to be stuck with someone that may or may not become your lifetime companion. So, I'm not going to fall apart like I used to do before if in the end I couldn't claimed you as my own. I am stronger now. I've been through many things. It's just that sometimes I think I deserve to take a rest from my independence and rely on people's shoulder for a while. What do I feel right now? Numb. I can't feel a thing. Not sadness, not joy. I just hope that all my hardwork at the moment will be well-paid later in life. Because I really deserve that.
What can you do when your good is not good enough
When all that you touch tumbles down
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take for me to get it right?
So I throw up my fist
I will punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
I'll send out a wish, I'll send up a prayer
And finally someone will see how much I care!
Imperfection is individuality -Unknown
Love, Lindy
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