Inside Wants Out

Did you ever want something so bad that you burst into tears and weep? If you're four years old then I'll be surprised if you don't. Problem is, you're not. I'm not. Hopefully, we're all not. But I have this desire, very very big desire, to see the world. I have always had this wish but never as strong as it is now. I spent the past two hours staring at my laptop screen and scouring for any travel agent in Indonesia that offers international tours. And unfortunately, no offers fit my pocket.

I grew up in Indonesia, not a developed country, but beautiful and daring. I love my country so much but it's like living in a box you've given birth into; At first, the box seemed so big and spacious. As you grow up, you eventually realize that the box is not growing with you. It doesn't expand. Within sixteen years, your head and arms and leg were struggling to fit inside the box. Some people were able to adapt and feel comfortable living in that box because they made up soothing reason to entertain themselves. "I've lived in this box my entire life and I feel fine. I will not sacrifice this just to have a peek of the outside world" or "I know my strength. I'll never be able to break this box. Rather than fracturing my limb in the process, I think I'll survive living inside this box"

But I don't want this kind of life! Ordinary is boring. Normal is overrated. I want to not only take a peek of the outside world but also be a part of it. See it with my own eyes. Breathe the air with my own nose, hear the crowd's voices with my own ears and feel the ground with my own feet. I don't want to leave this world with only a few pictures in my camera. It will be a waste of money since the camera worth a fortune, right? I truly believe that the world is too small for someone with a will. And hopefully I can overcome this economic trench between me and my outside world and then finally, I can live the life I want to live.

Sure I'm exaggerating. There is more to life than just filling in photo albums. I've said it myself. But is it wrong to have a wish? I will never know whether I'll be able to break my box or end up exhausted and surrender, adapted to live inside the box. This dream is a one-to-a-million shot. I will need a hefty sum of money to be able to live the life I want to live. I even doubted myself will this ever be come true. But a girl can dream, can't she?

To all the places I have not visit, yet. And to the languages I have not mastered, yet. And to all my friends I have not met, yet: I love you, unconditionally. -Lindy Dharmawan

What Makes My Day

Waking up in the morning with a phone call of someone singing this song.

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold

I don't want my love to go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase

You're the one I wanna hold

I won't let another minute go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special

To you I'd always be faithful

I want to be what you always needed

Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold

I don't want my love to go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase

You're the one I wanna hold

I won't let another minute go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah

You might need time to think it over

But I'm just fine moving forward

I'll ease your mind

If you give me the chance

I will never make you cry c'mon lets try

Am I crazy for wanting you

Baby do you think you could want me too

I don't wanna waste your time

I don't wanna waste your time

Do you see things the way I do

I just wanna know you feel it too

There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold

I don't want my love to go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase

You're the one I wanna hold

I won't let another minute go to waste

I want you and your soul

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold

I don't want my love to go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

Thank you :)

Whisper & Faith in House

Whisper by A Fine Frenzy and Faith by George Michael.

You've got to listen to these songs!!

I discovered them while watching my current favorite TV show: House MD. Hugh Laurie is a-mazing! It's been a pandemic in my school for the past week. Thanks to Meva Nareza for introducing it to us! As you know, our high school is divided into four major and I currently majored in Biology. Finding a movie like House is like killing two birds in one shot. We get to watch a movie AND learn something new. Not just biology or meds material, but also humanity and morale value. And some belly-shaker as well :) If you haven't watched it yet, go run to the nearest DVD store and enjoy House's hospitality in your flatscreen.

At first, I find some difficulties to watch this TV shows because it is full with medical terms. But don't worry it will not ruin the story cause eventhough you don't understand it, it doesn't really matter. Also House likes to use metaphors to make things a little bit more 'understandable'. Hey but if you're curious I'm going to list some medical terms that are used frequently in House's series. Enjooyy:

1. EKG: Electrocardiogram; used to monitor heartbeats

2. EEG: Electroencephalogram; used to monitor brain electrical activity. You'll hear terms like alpha waves, theta waves, delta waves etc.

3. CSF: Cerebrospinal Fluid; fluid that surrounds brain your spinal cord

4. LP: Lumbar Puncture; diagnostic test that takes out your CSF from your backbone and examine it

5. PT: Prothrombine Time; time measured for how long does your plasma clots

6. PTT: Partial Thromboplastin Time; time measured for how long does your blood clots

7. CHEM7: A test that measure your blood chemical substances. There are 7 subtstances measured: Sodium, Potassium, Chloride, Glucose, CO2, Creatinine and BUN

8. BUN: Blood Urea Nitrogen

9. CT, PET, MRI: Scanning devices

10. OR: Operating Room

11. MS: Multiple Sclerosis: a disease where the nerves are demyelinated

12. MRSA: Methicillin-resistant Staphylococcus Aureus

13. HLA: Human Leukocyte Antigen; it's what they tested if they want to do a bone marrow transplant

14. Intubate: Make airways for people who have respiratory distress

15. B.P: Blood Pressure

16. O2 Sats: Saturation of haaemoglobin with O2

17. Bradycardia: Slow heart rate

18. Tachycardia: Fast heart rate

19. Preeclampsia: Pregnant women with high blood pressure

20. Sarcoidosis: inflammation of lymph nodes and other body tissue

21. Amyloidosis: amyloid protein abnormally deposited inside your body

22. V-fib: Ventricular fibrillation; severe abnormal heart rythm

23. V-tach: Ventricular tachycardia; rapid heartbeat that starts in the ventricle

24: DIC: Disseminated intravascular coagulation; your body throwing clots everywhere

25. CBC: Complete Blood Counts

26. Everything ends with -oma: Cancer

27. Everything ends with -itis: Inflammation

28. Everything ends with -pathy: Anomaly

29. VQ: Ventilation-perfusion scan, measure your airflow and bloodflow

30. Paraneoplastic syndrome: it's a syndrome that occurs if your body got a cancer

31. Anythings IV: Intravenous, liquid

32. IG(A/D/E/M/G): Immunoglobulin, type of antibodies

33. Banana bag: A type of IV fluid with lots of vitamins and dextrose for alcoholic. They called it banana cause it's yellow

34. Dialysis: a machine that takes over your kidney's job when they're failing

That's about it, I think. Well, if you find more, you can always depend on Mr. Google. Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to continue watching Dr. House. I am hoping that one day, I could be a doctor just like him. HOPKINS HERE I COME!!! *music plays*